Updated: Aug 3, 2019
A little background; I’ve never been a hard worker. It's that simple, I’ve always quit once something got hard. Nursing school? Quit, dance classes? Quit, jobs I didn’t love? quit. But then … I became a mom. THE HARDEST job I have ever had, and guess what, I can’t quit. No matter how hard the days get, no matter how badly I want to just not some days. I can’t quit. And in that I found strength and freedom I never thought I had. In becoming a mom I turned into someone who wanted better, someone who wanted to wake up in the morning with a purpose. I don’t mean to sound like those cliche young moms who say their baby changed their life for the better… but im gonna say it; she did.
I believe once she turned two months I got sick of sitting on the couch watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians all day. I got sick of wearing the same old pjs I’ve had since grade 9. I got sick of my frumpy body and maternity underwear, I realized that there was more to me than just being “a mom”. Now im not saying that being a mom isn’t one of the worlds greatest gifts/ jobs, because it is. But I am telling you that just because your a mom doesn’t mean that's it for you. Just because you're a mom doesn’t mean that your life is over.
I read a quote that my friend showed me, it made me sit back and take a good look at my life; “You were someone before you were their mom, and that person matters” (author unknown). (Is that how you site something?, Don’t know I'm a nursing drop out, remember?). I was someone before I became a mom, I need to nourish and support that person if I want to be the woman I'm meant to be. If I want my daughter to look up to me one day and think
“wow look at my mom” I have to start now. I have to take my life by the balls (sorry, but how else would you describe it?) And live. I have to go back to school. I have to accept the opportunities I am given, I have to start my dream business. And I have to start now.
Becoming a mom didn’t ruin me. It didn’t change me. It empowered me.