I've anxiously been awaiting this day, your first birthday. If I'm being honest with you, I really didn't want it to come this fast. I wanted you to stay my tiny little baby for as long as possible. But unfortunately, time goes on, and here we are January 31, the day I became your mama.
Sweet girl I prayed for you long before I knew about you, a best friend, a soul mate, and a piece of my heart beating outside of my body. Your father and I may be young but that doesn't shorten our love for you, you light us up every day.
This year you taught me much more than I've taught you. You taught me to savour every moment like it's my last. To stop looking around and look right in front of me. You taught me to laugh at any and everything, to enjoy every moment we're blessed with. You taught me to use my imagination and to stop being so uptight. Lastly, my dear, you taught me how to be the mommy you deserve, and for that, I am forever grateful.
This year of firsts flew by much too fast, Your first "dada", your first steps, your first clap, and so many more. I have forever ingrained in my mind these precious moments. Pictures don't serve enough justice, I try to remember the smell of your baby breath, the feeling of your tiny hand in mine, and the way your eyes light up when you see me (God only knows soon you'll be 16 wishing I'd leave you alone).
My sweet girl, I will forever keep this year close to my heart. 2019 was not only filled with your firsts but mine too! I have never felt so alive and in love, I will forever thank you for blessing me with the opportunity to guide you through life.
I hope as you get older you read my letters and know just how much your mommy loves you, you'll forever be my sweet ZayBae.